23 November 2006

thanksgiving

The nursing is really bad tonight. John never gets here. Neither does the chubby male aide who doesn't know anything anyway.these guys are more cavalier, especially since the Monday surgeries are off morphine and catheters:that means we have poorer pain management and it is in their hands.for the first time, I am scared of the care.I have no control.. Ed and Chelsea are gone. A moment ago, I sat at the side of my bed waiting an eternity for one of the boys to take me to the toidy.I rang and rang and no one came. Then this nice kid came and I asked him for tylenol because I thought percoset on an empty tummer was not good. Haven't seen him since.
Now feeling bummed out, vulnerable and depressed. Time to meditate.

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